Posting about this journey

Initially I started this blog just to update family and friends about how Aimee was doing at the hospital. Since things didn't turn out as I'd hoped and Aimee is now with our Father in Heaven I've begun a new journey. Traveling with grief is something I've done before. I don't imagine it is something anyone would choose, but in this frail mortal existence it seems that everyone will eventually experience it. I've decided to share some of my thoughts along the way in the hopes that it may help someone when they must submit to a similar experience.

That being said, I'm still planning on posting memories of Aimee here as well as photos and more videos. I'm thinking about creating a "sister blog" as a remembrance of Aimee's journey. If I do that I'll post a link here for those who wish to only see posts in remembrance of Aimee.

So I guess this is the start...

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Friday Update

I'm sorry if we didn't get you called and you find out this way, but my sweet Aimee didn't surive. She's still on a respirator so her heart is beating but she's not with us. I'm really struggling right now. We haven't told our younger kids yet and I need to get some sleep so I can think. I'll try to post again later today.

Aimee's Marker

It's been awhile since I've posted. Things are still up and down for me. I sometimes feel guilty when I have good days. I think that is odd, but I try to remind myself that Aimee wouldn't want me to be miserable the rest of my life. It just feels like a betrayal to have a good day. I know that isn't true and I do combat those thoughts it's just another part of my grieving process. Next Thursday is Aimee's birthday. She would have been 18 years old. At times I feel cheated, but I know somehow, someday God will make it all right. We are going to do Aimee's temple work on her birthday. I'm really glad we're going to do something so positive on such a difficult day. I feel sad that it is the last thing I can do for her and in some ways want to save it for later, but I feel like this is the best thing for all of us. I don't want to stall her eternal progression and I think it will be wonderful to feel her so close in the temple that day! On Monday...

1 Year Mark

It's really hard for me to believe that 1 year has gone by. The last week was really hard. Two weeks ago I started having nightmares reliving the events of the last week of Aimee's life on Earth. After about a week of that I started getting better sleep without the nightmares, but still not really that great. During the day that week I was having flashbacks to what we were doing at that time a year ago. As you can imagine all of this really piqued my emotions. It was frustrating because logically I know I can't change the events and these nightmares and daymares weren't helping, but they'd come despite my knowledge of their futility. It has gotten better. Saturday we went to the cemetery to leave some flowers at Aimee's spot. We dug down about a foot and a half to find her marker. If we didn't know exactly where it was and the flowers from Christmas weren't there it would have been really hard to find. The flowers from Christmas were frozen in water ab...

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